Waiting

In the edge of this cliff
Behind all the doubts
In front of the miseries
Led by the shining lights

I waited for this moment
I long to live for this second
This time, this butterfly can fly free
This time, all those burden will fade away

I miss you.

Knowing that I won't be able to see your smile,
Knowing that I might've fell again,
It kills me

It kills me knowing that I will be missing you,
While you'll never even know what I felt deep within
It kills me waiting for someone that'll never be there for me

The smell of your perfume
The way you get your hair done
The way you walked with your hands in your pocket
The way you smiled
The way you looked at me,
Yeah, I miss those

I miss you :(
I miss every single thing we had
I miss our late night talks
I miss our little calls
I miss how you held my hands,
It was warm
I miss the way you used to tease me
I miss the way you call my pet name
I miss you

I do
I always does

I lied
I know.

I know what you felt for her
A heartbreaking fact that torn me away
A never-ending shot right in the middle of my heart
A sharp bullet shredding my heart to small pieces

I miss you
I love you
and I always will

Haruskah?

Haruskah aku mundur?
Haruskah aku menepi?
atau haruskan ku pergi?

Kobaran api itu
memang aku pelakunya
Sambaran petir itu
memang aku yang mengirimnya

Kini kau perlahan pergi
meninggalkan jejak pahitnya masa kini
meninggalkan fatamorgana cinta ini
meninggalkan harapan senja hari

Ya, aku memang wanita
Memang akulah yang seharusnya lebih perasa
Lebih menghargai cinta kasih tulusmu
Kini semua hangus bak tertiup debu

Aku tak kuat lagi

Aku kira kau masih mencintaiku
Aku kira kau masih menungguku
Aku kira kau cukup tegar
Aku kira hanya aku satu

Kini kau jelas berpaling
Kini kau jelas berbalik
Kau bukanlah kau yang dulu
Kau bukanlah orang yang kucintai

Beribu doa kupanjatkan
Ternyata hanya bintang yang mengerti
Ternyata hanya bulan yang mendengar
Ternyata hanya fatamorgana cintamu

Sungguh perih hati ini
Tersakiti, aku tak kuat lagi

Apa artinya?

Apa artinya aku menunggu kamu?

Apa gunanya aku sabar menunggu?

Mau kau apakan cintaku?

Mau kau apakan hatiku?

Selama ini aku memang berpura-pura

Tapi bukan berarti aku tidak peduli

Bukan berarti aku sengaja 

Bukan berarti aku tak mencintai 

Terlambat sudah kini 

Semua sudah terlalui 

Semua hanya sia-sia saja

Menghilang dalam sekejab mata

Selamat tinggal cinta

Selamat berpisah harapan

Berbahagialah engkau disana

Memang

Memangnya sehina itukah aku?

Memangnya separah itukah aku?

Memangnya aku tak boleh merindukan dirimu?

Memangnya aku berdosa jika aku sangat menyayangimu

Back Then

Back then when the light dimmed

Back then when all I hear is only your voice

Back then when all I see is only your face

Back then when all I trust is your warmth

Back then when my heart is still as one

I trusted you

so I gave you all my heart

I treasure you

so I gave you all mine

I used to think that we are destined to be

I used to think that fairytales do exist

I used to think that dreams were meant to come true

I used to think that love does exist in real life

I used to think that I could forgive you

I used to think that you'll never betray me

I used to think that 'we' means forever

I used to believe happy life does exist

But, now I don't.

Now it's broken

Scattered and ruptured

cracked and rumbled

Letih

Aku sungguh letih
Berlari menari-nari
Aku telah mencoba
Sekuat tenaga kucoba

Keringatku mungkin sudah habis
Air mataku sudah mengering
Aku tak kuat lagi
Sungguh sakit yang kurasa

Kukira mereka begitu berharga
Ternyata hanya begitu saja
Kakiku sudah cukup lemas
untuk menopang tubuhku

Sungguh berat kurasa tubuh ini
Aku kini tak sanggup lagi
Tuhan bantu aku berdiri
Sungguh sulit bagiku untuk merasa kini

:(

When all you can do is leave me

When all my heart is scattered 

Where are you

Where have you go

When memories are pulling me backwards

When my visions are only about you, and only you

I have no other thoughts 

I am dumb enough, to be fooled

I'm such a fool for you

I fell hard and crashed

I jumped high, but no one has ever pulled me back

I secretly hoped you knew, but then it was too late

Right from the start I knew you are the one

But then I was wrong

My heart tells me to go on

but my soul is stolen anyway

It was all too late for now

Thanks for being there for me that moment. 

Just so you know, I love you and I always will

Why?

Why do you put me here?

I'm standing out of nowhere

Out of your sight forever

Out in the dark

Why do you leave me?

I'm lonely and in jeopardy

I'm starving and devastating

Why do you stop?

When everything is going just fine

When I'm trying to convince you

When all I do is wait for you

Why are you even here?

Go, don't remember me

Let happiness be among you 

I miss you

Sometimes when you tried too hard
He never cared
Sometimes when you miss that one thing
He just never knew

When I said 'I always do'
He never cared too
When I said 'I miss you'
He would just stand there like a statue

Can you please know
and Let me love you
With all my heart I gave it you
Please just let me know
If you really do,
Then just show the truth.

kasih

Ada apa dengan kamu?
Semakin kucuba untuk menjauh
Semakin kucoba untuk melupakan bayangmu
Kau tepat di tempatmu itu

Itu memang mauku
Aku mau kau bahagia
Aku sungguh tak tahu
Aku hanya tak ingin kehilanganmu

Sulit memang rasanya
Pergi meninggalkan 'dunia'
Disaat bulan masih purnama
Disaat langit tak lagi bersatu

Kapanpun dimanapun
Panggil namaku
Simpan aku
Sebut panggilan sayangmu itu
Aku sungguh masih mencintaimu, kasihku

Curhat yaa :p

Hi diary, Kamu, kenapa ya susah banget untuk melupakan kamu? Kenapa ya setiap aku dengerin lagu yang tentang romance, kamu kayak ada disitu? Dan kenapa setiap aku main lagu yang aku buat kamu, hatiku sakit banget.. Rasanya aku udah rela kamu pergi, tapi disaat yang sama aku belum rela kamu pergi. Kenapa gak kamu pergi dari hati aku dan pergi jauh dari mimpi-mimipiku? Kenapa selalu ada rasa itu setiap aku melihat senyun indah itu? Kenapa selalu ada rasa rindu di tengah sepi malam-malamku? Kenapa hanya dengan bulan dan bintang aku bisa berbiacara sama kamu? Kenapa selalu ada kamu di otakku? Oh sungguh, aku ingin melupakan jejakmu, tapi kenapa selalu ada kamu disitu? Kenapa harus ada kamu di hatiku? Tuhan bantu aku. Keluarkan aku dari penjara hatiku. Bebaskan aku untuk mencari lelaki lain dalam hidupku. Sadarkan aku. Tuhan hapuskan jejaknya dari hidupku.

Dear you.

Dear you, don't you know how much broken hearts you left me? All i asked is for you to be happy for me. I let you go because I wanted the best for you, and your happiness in the future if I have no other choice than to leave you alone. I am sorry if I intent to avoid you, all I want is to make you happy, if it has to compliant my feeling and my heart for your happiness, I am willing to let you go. I am such a fool, I never knew how much you meant to me until time finally reminded me. You are the one who should be happy, I am sorry for letting go of us. I'm sorry if I ever made you upset. I never want to leave you this way. I love you, and that's what I knew for sure. Thanks for being you for he last couple of year, those two irreplaceable years I spent with you. No matter how far or how hard life would be without me, learn to move on and love others like you loved me, okay? I love you no matter, what, I think you may not read this but you have to know that how hard it is for me to be this way, you are the one. I love you and thanks for being you.

Love does hurts, so don't give up on anyone you love.
Why is it so hard getting over you?
Why is it very painful?

randomfacts

Well hello there people ^^ If you ever wonder who is the person behind this blog, let me imtroduce myself, as you know I am those sappy, hypothetic, and a hopeless romantic kind of person. I wrote things about how I feel and things I can't communicate directly. I'm not an introvert kind of person but I sure have those things that regular people have, like secret crushes and broken hearts. Sometimes in my spare times what I usually do is I like to cook, eat, write songs, and  have fun, just like any other 14 years old kid would experience. Well I also would like to apologies for my English grammar, because as you know I'm born as a proud Indonesian and raised here too, thank you for basically reading this. Ehm, there's one thing that maybe explains to you why I named my account as thatbrightstar, I was named as one of March's east star, which is believed to be a lucky star for some of the sailors, like my grandpa, that pretty much explains why I love astronomy and obsessed on stars. Thanks for reading guys, have a great day ;)

Aku merelakanmu

Sejak kau pergi menjauh
Dunia seakan menjadi kelabu
Jika ini memang jalanmu
Gapailah dengan anganmu

Bawa daku di hatimu
Aku telah merelakan kepergianmu
Pergi sejauh yang kau mau
Aku rela berpisah demi dirimu

Kuharap engkau tahu
Seberapa aku akan merindukanmu

Perpisahan

Selamat tinggal kasihku
Apakah dirimu tahu
Kudisini masih mengharapkanmu
menangis ku terdiam sendu

Mengapa kau tega?
Meninggalkan semua kenangan kita
Rajutan mimpi dan asa
Harapan untuk terus bahagia
Bersama meski suka duka

Apa maumu?
If only you knew
Would you stay?
just for a while, for me

Mengapa?

Mengapa harus aku
Mengapa harus dirimu
Mengapa kita bertemu
Dan mengapa harus begitu

Jika memang ini jalanku
Jika memang ini takdirku
Kurelakan engkau menjauh
Kurelakan dirimu

Namun jika kaulah takdirku
Jika kaulah belahan jiwaku
Kita pasti akan bertemu
Kita pasti akan menyatu

Dimanakah dirimu

Aku tak tahu
Apa yang terjadi padaku
Aku tak mengerti
Dengan semua ini

Disaat aku membutuhkan keberadaanmu
Disaat aku mulai untuk mencarimu
Disaat aku terlalu menyayangimu
Dimanakah dirimu disaat itu

When you came.

I don't know how
You mend a broken heart
With just a magical touch
You came into my life
And color everything

Everything seems so cheerful
Everything became wonderful
And I somehow felt beautiful
What is going on with me?

When you came,
Everything changed.